Neglected

People think my life is easy because of the excitement they see, I just don't put everything on social media for the critics to see, They don't know about the thousands of dollars I funded into events, people, and dreams, Most of the people i supported I will never see again, Once the "support" stopped then they cease to exist, Wondering why people violate and never take anyone serious, Why love turned into a f***fest to see who can win the race, So much quality people being wasted, Because hearts, minds, and souls are not fixed just a bunch of replacements, So they move through the emotions and never get fully committed, So the person who fell in love gets neglected, People lost their trust in life, So now to gain trust we put people through unbearable obstacles that are destined to show failure, Then get mad they failed, And people you go into things to fast and not admit your trust issues, Now they get neglected because you have your own issues, So what my neglect issue? How many people actually have my book on their shelf? Who actually purchased and read it on the kindle? Who actually shared the page, a poem, cross promoted it? Sadly mostly randoms did.. But let flip the script.. How many times you supported people? How many times have you purchased something towards a dream, How many times have you shared content for someone. I can't even count how many times I did it for others, So don't ask me why I get frustrated with people, why I sometimes Im so nonchalant with people who don't support me, I'm not sorry I treat most of you as associates, I'm not investing in b.s. and sadly I get numb once I see a red flag, I use to be so open hearted given to the majority then you all just spit me back out once you were done, So now as I'm in recovery and healing up, I'm blockading all the fake "support" "love" "appreciation" Now you see why I feel neglected And I'm trying my best to make someone else who deserves attention to not be neglected, But it's hard...